thoughts…

i'm listening to an album by Air, called Talkie Walkie, and the third track is so incredibly eeriely interestingly rewarding to listen to. and because one of the songs on this album was featured in lost in translation, a movie in japan, this album always has a sense of being part of japan, even though it was written by a French duo.

so i'm listening to this song, as i'm doing now, and it just feels as though, i'll be on the plane, just listening to my iPod, 5 hours into the flight. it'll be darkish on the plane, i'll be in an isle seat on the left side of the centre row of seats on the plane, and i'll just be sitting there, waiting to get there, thinking about finally going to spend a year in the country that i've wanted to live in for my entire life.

i can picture myself doing that, but i don't know what i'll be thinking about. i've got a feeling it'll be a feeling of melancholic happiness; delight that i've succeded in my biggest goal so far, but sad at the same time that i'll be away from my family and friends for a whole year, alone in this new place, away from everything i know and understand.

and i've been feeling that for the last year, everytime i hear that one song, Run. it was also on an ep of Veronica Mars, which helped cement my love for it! :D

i was thinking the other day, doing some japanese, that i'm not particularly good at it. what i'm writing might be original and interesting, but i've got a real issue in my grammar and sentence structure retention. how the fuck am i supposed to communicate for a year in a language i'm only just starting to grasp? it's going to be so complicated, i can tell that i'm just going to be there sometimes, and i'll just be so sick of trying to communicate as best as i can, and still not getting anywhere. but it'll pay off - i'm supposed to come home fluent - but it'll be difficult, i just know it will…

i'm half way through my winter holidays. got back from Mooloolaba yesterday evening, the weather in adelaide is pretty cold, especially since in our hotel room, which wasn't that heated, i was sleeping with just a sheet, and then a light blanket half way through the night. because i haven't seen that side of the family much recently, it was great to meet them all again, and being able to talk to them like an adult, and do adult things with each other, rather than me as a little kid. it was good.

anyway, back now to reality, doing not enough work for the rest of the holidays, and eventually regretting it later.

oh, btw, i'm going to be seeing harry potter 6 with a friend the day it comes out, which is really exciting! i really can't wait, i've never seen a movie like this before. i think i'll see Brüno with another friend this week too, should be good. :D

bye!